A win in my mind!

Tuesday and Wednesday were no good days for me.  I didn't workout because C1 (OLDEST) was sick with some crazy virus, headaches, pink eye, fever, hives, it was a MESS!  It wore me out and by the time I got all three kids in bed, I just wanted to sit in the silence and solitude that surrounded me, and so I did.  This then made it impossible to wake up the next morning, made me tired and grouchy, and the cycle continued.   It's a horrible cycle that I hope breaks soon.

I do get  to report one win though.  Yesterday morning I was all out of milk so I had to run to the store.  While I was there all I wanted to do was go get a few donuts with the delicious cold milk I was about to buy.  I walked by them 2 times, even picked up a box of donuts to put in my cart, but I couldn't do it.  I succeeded in that moment against my body's desire for treats.  I may not have succeeded later on in the day, but at that moment, I WON!

Today I won too.  I was finally able to workout for 45 minutes.  I can totally feel it and I better stretch some more so I am not too sore tomorrow, GO ME!

Official Weigh-in day

I weighed myself in this morning.  

I was pretty worried the number had gone up instead of down. . .

It was a very stressful weekend with a very sick 6 year old, packing, my anniversary (where we did nothing), friends over for a VERY yummy dinner, etc. 

Much to my surprise, 

I was DOWN 3 lbs from my starting weight last Monday, in fact it was technically almost 4 lbs lost!  I went from 211.8 to 208.1 ! ! ! 

So FREAKIN excited, you don't even KNOW!!!

This goes to show that I can do it at home.  

I have to be more cautious with my choices and push myself 10 times harder than I did while working out at my bootcamp class, but I can do this.  

The reason I say push myself 10 times harder is because with the help and friends around in the workout class, they pushed me.  They helped me want to be better, work harder, do what I didn't think I could do. Because they said I could do it, I believed it, I pushed it, and I did it. 

When I am at home, I let my brain work overtime, instead of my mind believing my heart.  I tend to give in to my body instead of listening to my heart and I don't do as much as I know I could have.  Even this week, I know I could have pushed myself harder than I did.  

Oh well, it's a new week, a new start, and a time to move forward!

I've got a date with "ONE"derland!

I have exercised for 3 straight days.  Trying to wake up at 6 has worked 2 out of the 3 days. 

How do people do it when they have a baby up multiple times in the night?  How do they fit it in?  C3 (baby) normally sleeps so well, but he's had croup and nastiness for about a week now.  It is no fun having a sick baby and then no fun to have a tired mom!  

I was proud of myself because although I was exhausted, I still fit in a good workout when C3 took a nap.

I joined the KSL Studio 5 10lb challenge.  How awesome would it be to be one of the winners?  I am going to work REALLY hard on this, do the best I can, work the hardest I can and see what we get.  If I can lose the 10 lbs this month I will enter "ONE"derland and I can't wait for that date!

2012 Here we come!

Today was my first workout of 2012. I had ever intention of running on Monday and on Tuesday, however, a baby with chest x-rays and croup to boot prevented that. Last night I was watching Biggest Loser the theme this season is "NO EXCUSES". I am FILLED with excuses lately. 

Not just with exercising, but with anything in life usually. 

I procrastinate like no other!

I get defensive if something is brought up even if it is my fault and I start with the excuses!

I tell my kids I will play with them, spend time with them, etc. and then the excuses roll in. They usually range from "I've gotta clean this up" to "Not right now" as I sit on the computer wasting time. That last one is the one I am the MOST ashamed of, and hope to limit that excuse IMMEDIATELY. 

It reminds me of a scripture I read one day in the Book of Mormon that really hit me. I don't know what the scripture was, or where it was, but I do remember having the prompting the Heavenly Father doesn't want our excuses, he only wants us to try.

I woke up this morning at 6 AM to a baby crying with a horrible cough. I had set my alarm and planned on waking up at 6 AM to work out. After I got C3 (third baby) settled and back down it was already 6:15. I only had 45 minutes to workout before the kiddos awoke.

I went outside and ran up and down my block twice for a quick warm up run (don't worry my house was in my sight at ALL TIMES) and then I did Jillian's 30 day shred Level 2. 

It kicked my BUTT

I am SO glad I finally pulled my butt out of bed and did it!

After I got done working out this morning, I came to an awareness of how GREAT getting up in the morning and working out is.  It forced me to get up and have some time to myself.  

Have a moment to pray by myself.  Have a moment to think about JUST ME, no one else.  No one else needed help in those moments, just me.  

It also forced me to get in the shower, and that doesn't happen every day or even every other day some weeks!  If I wake up early enough, I may just get a shower in with no kiddos awake and peace and quiet!

I am going all out today, just so you are aware. I have taken photos of me to post on here. Every month I will post new measurements and new pictures. 

Here's to hoping we have some drastic improvements over the next few months!

Weight:
Waist: 43
Hips: 50.5
Thigh: 24
Upper Arm: 14.5

Fitness Test:
Push-ups for 1 min: 46 (Girl)
Sit-ups for 1 min: 33 (full sit-ups)

Final run of 2011

Today I wanted to go to the temple but by the time my life was calm enough to leave my house, the temple had already closed for the Holiday.  To make matters worse, it is closed until JANUARY 23RD and by then we will have moved.  I have GOT to find time to go to the Logan temple, even if it is to just ponder.  It is the temple to remind me of home when we come through the canyon, the place Cris and I were sealed, and the place Cris and I both received our endowments.  It will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart!

Instead of going to the temple, I decided to go on a final run for 2011.  I ran against the wind and finished a mile at 11:38.  The last time I ran a mile was Halloween so that felt good to get that time.  I then came home and did 20 push-ups and 63 situps in a minute!  I am looking forward to 2012.  It will bring more changes in my life than the year I got married, moved twice, and had a baby, but they will all be wonderful, welcomed changes! I look forward to starting the year off right and losing this weight that is holding me back from many things.  Here's to 2012~

2012 is here (well almost)!

2012 is almost here and with it brings a lot of changes.  We are moving to Spanish Fork, selling our home, buying a new home, Cris is living down there and I am up here, man life is STRESSFUL!  I haven't worked out in 3 weeks now and have eaten everything I wanted.  I was SURE my scale would say I was back up to 215 but I am still down at 209.  That is 13 lbs down since mid September.  It isn't that great, but considering how hectic my life has been, I am happy with this number. 

The hecticness in my life is going to change.  Is hecticness even a word?  Probably not, but nevertheless, it is not going to change.  We put an offer on a house, we are waiting for this home to sell, it is under contract, but it takes time.  Life is CRAZY, but I can't let a crazy life get in the way of me being healthy.  I intend on updating this thing at least once a week, we will have to see if that happens, while we are moving, it may be less.  One thing I know for sure, this blog is going to get deep.  I am going to go where I've never gone before.  I am not going to worry about offending people in my past that have helped me get to the weight I am at, but I also know to not blame them, where I am is all on me.  I have 60 lbs to my goal weight, and then 15 lbs to my extreme goal weight. 

Back in September I started a program called Body Rebellion.  I gained new friendships and a new love for extreme exercising.  I learned I can push my body farther than I ever imagined and I lost 13 lbs in 6 weeks.  Unfortunately in the last 8 weeks, I have stayed the same.  My life got hectic with the above mentioned and I shut down.  I kept working out but I ate whatever I want.  Thank goodness for the working out or I would have gained more back.  I am grateful for what I learned at BR and so sad we are moving away from it.  I can't WAIT to get into a better routine of eating but for now I will start with the exercising and slowly change my eating habits and learn to like healthy food!

Re-focusing

WOAH, as we all know it is HARD to lose weight, but this time around, it is even harder for me to stay focused.  I do REALLY well for a week than nothing for a couple weeks til I refocus myself and these last two weeks haven't been any different.  Man, I need some cheerleaders in my court, or maybe I need to make my husband refocus on helping me/making me workout!  I gotta do this, I gotta get fit and healthy.  Here's to a better month with September starting.

Weight 217